DirtyBag.me

All my friends through high school always said that “once you get married you’ll never have sex again”. I didn’t believe them at first because I thought they meant that literally. Now, I know exactly what they meant.

When your married that “lust” you had for your significant other seems to have faded away (in my situation) well, at least on the woman’s side. I never really thought I’d be in this situation with the “I’m too tired’s” or “I’m not in the mood”. I get it that this happens occasionally but all the time? It seems like at our age we should be having sex all the time. It’s as if I’m wasting my best sex years away.

The biggest thing is how do you break this cycle? You don’t! Well thats what it seems like. It’s a choice by the person and now I know why marriages fail due to spouses cheating. They need that attention. Not only attention but for men there is that desire. Yes, it’s true guys need to release their sexual urges. Masturbation doesn’t always cut it. But it’s so hard when you have already tried talking to your spouse and they just don’t seem to get it. What do you do from there? Live with it? Well, that just leaves a ticking time bomb. Masturbate? Your hand really doesn’t fulfill the need. Cheat? Of course this is a no because you would ruin your marriage as well as family. So what’s left?

It’s crazy that cheating seems like the best option when all other options and attempts are exhausted. I always think that what if that one night stand cures that urge for awhile. Doubtful, but is it worth a shot? However, all the other questions fall in to place. How do you keep it a secret? Can you live with yourself? With a stranger? A close friend? How could you trust them? And it just seems like the situation becomes even more difficult especially when this beast of an emotion or desire continues to grow. It comes down to the basic fact that all I want is a healthy and fruitful sexual life with my partner but it doesn’t seem to be reciprocated. After that what do you do? Questions and different roads are all that remain until something is done or a decision is made. The beast just continues to grow…

The truth is I am writing / starting / updating this blog because the need for social interaction has elevated to the extreme level. Not just any social interaction because I get the basic everyday social interaction on a daily basis. Its just I need someone (or thing) to talk to or vent at. Not necessarily complaining but releasing my thoughts out on to the world to ease some sort of tension and build up that I have bottled up inside.

Thoughts cloud my day on a regular basis especially when there is an issue that is just nagging at me but especially when there is no solution and it just sits to linger and eat at my day. I also feel that this section of cyber space that I will call my own is a place where I can share my sexual frustration / thoughts / pleasures / fantasies without shame or the judgement of anyone else. 

So this mostly is a blog where I can vent about the main issues of my life (mainly being sexual) and where I can share my thoughts. Thanks, read on if you wish!